Amplify LGBTQ+ Poets, Day 8

The Gunman

by Steven Sanchez

Imagine:

                              the four chambers of my heart

                                                                           each loaded with a bullet,

                              each beat another revolution

                                                            in my chest,

my throat

                              a barrel,

                                                            my curled tongue

                                                                                                         a trigger.

                                                            I believe

                                                                           in spirits,

in every fag

                              and queer

                                                            I’ve heard

                                                                           and allowed

                                                                                                         to pass through my body

                                                            and into the next.

I believe

                              in possession,

                                                            believe each metal slug

                              entering our bodies

                                                                                          tonight is a history

                              we can’t escape,

                                                                                          forged in factories

                              across this country

                                                                                          by men

                                                            who feel threatened

                                                                                                                        by love.

And when I stare

                                                            into my reflection

                                                                                          one last time tonight,

                              I know each pupil

will become an exit

                                                                                          wound.

                                                                                                                        I’ve spent my life

                              learning to lie

                                                            to myself,

                                                                                          but tonight

the truth

                              will enter my body,

                                                            will hurt,

                                                                                          will kill,

                                                                                                                        will leave

an echo.

Originally published in Glass: A Journal of Poetry, August 3, 2016

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