My Father in English
by Richard Blanco
First half of his life lived in Spanish: the long syntax
of las montañas that lined his village, the rhyme
of sol with his soul–a Cuban alma–that swayed
with las palmas, the sharp rhythm of his machete
cutting through caña, the syllables of his canarios
that sung into la brisa of the island home he left
to spell out the second half of his life in English–
the vernacular of New York City, sleet, neon, glass–
and the brick factory where he learned to polish
steel twelve hours a day. Enough to save enough
to buy a used Spanish-English dictionary he kept
bedside like a Bible–studied fifteen new words
after his prayers each night, then practiced them
on us the next day: Buenos días, indeed, my family.
Indeed más coffee. Have a good day today, indeed–
and again in the evening: Gracías to my bella wife,
indeed, for dinner. Hicistes tu homework, indeed?
La vida is indeed dificil. Indeed did indeed become
his favorite word which, like the rest of his new life,
he never quite grasped: over-used and misused often
to my embarrassment. Yet the word I most learned
to love him through: indeed, the exile who
tried to master the language to chose to master him,
indeed, the husband who refused to say I love you
in English to my mother, the man who died without
true translation. Indeed, meaning: in fact/en efecto,
meaning: in reality/de hecho, meaning to say now
what I always meant to tell him in both languages:
thank you/gracías for surrendering the past tense
of your life so that I might conjugate myself here
in the present of this country, in truth/asi es, indeed.
from HOW TO LOVE A COUNTRY, copyright Richard Blanco 2019. Published by Beacon Press.
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